I’m so bummed I didn’t write more of these, but the writing ball really got dropped after Hazel was born. Especially once the pandemic hit. But I have a couple more months until I’m technically not a first time mom anymore, so I’m going to try to squeeze a few more in.
The above picture was taken right after Hazel had woken up from her nap. Most days she is a dream kid when she wakes up taking time to just play and talk in her crib before actually being ready to get up and this day was no different. Her hats hang on hooks by the door and I hear her repeat, “purple hat” a few times, so I take this as my cue to go in. I give her the hat and then she requests that I take her picture. When I come back from grabbing my phone, she has the hat on her head and is ready for a photoshoot. She is saying cheese and moving her head different ways and making different faces. It was beyond precious and made my heart swell a few sizes.
It still blows my mind that I have a legit toddler with her own personality and opinions; who doesn’t mind communicating those wants and feelings. The fact that she’s getting older and becoming more and more of a little person is very cool, but sometimes can be very stressful. Sometimes those opinions and wants don’t line up with the plan for the day or the food we currently have or the time of a day. When that happens, well, occasionally a tantrum is thrown or a scream is released, sometimes there is kicking or running away, and the best is when giggles and silliness erupt.
I don’t believe in all the terrible twos or threenager stuff or anything to do with toddlerhood being awful. Yes, it has frustrating moments, but mostly it’s just a stage of learning about communication and expression.
Over the past few weeks, Hazel has started to say, “I love you so much” and “thank you so much” and “pop!”. She requests and reciprocates hugs and kisses and “pops”. It is the sweetest thing to experience as a mom. Tonight while putting her to bed, my husband was holding her for our nightly family hug and “pop” (where we squeeze her and then say pop) and I turned out the light. When I came to join them, Hazel had her arm outstretched and said “pop mommy”. She squeezed me with one arm and said pop and then did it to Jeremiah. As she hugged us, she told us, “thank you so much” and although that’s not something you normally say right before bed, I felt like it was her little way of telling us she appreciates us and how we love and parent her. She then gave us both kisses and went right to bed.
This stage has been such a blessing in response to some of the rougher times we have had battling toddler wants and parent needs. But those kind, sweet, adorable, heart melting words and actions from her just make the whole thing worth it! ❤